imahag's Blog

He keeps doing drugs and lying as I sit here in my little world, safe, where no one can tell me what he's doing, where he's been.  He spends hundreds of dollars a day and then pretends he spent it on gas or cigs or whatever.  He makes me sick.  I would leave him but I'm too damned lazy.  I took his mac card from him today and he gave it up without a fight but it's  temporary.  He won't admit anymore what he's doing and the lying is beating me down. There's going to come a time when I've had enough of his crap.  He chased my friends away in the past becuase he's so damned controlling and writing this makes me realize how sick he truly makes me.  Maybe he'll overdose soon.  I'm waiting. 

Now today I'm extremely sad.  A lady I met this past year has died.  She use to come in where I worked and she always gave the lady I worked with a lot of grief because she could see that my co-worker was a bully and a liar.  It made me laugh because no one would dare stand up to this bully except this wonderful lady that has now passed away.  I can't believe how much I miss her all ready and I pray that she is resting in peace. 

He is so addicted to drugs that on the 4th of July, our neighborhood was having a huge block party with fireworks and all and I went to bed at 8:00 pm because I caught him all geeked up and lying and he didn't want to go outside the whole day because he was sick.  I had run into some old friends the night before and he ran them off.  He makes me sick.  He spent all of the money on drugs and now the utilties, the house, the camper, the good credit is all going down the drain and I am thinking of leaving because he is quite aware of what he's doing to himself and us but he claims he's sick and can't help it. 

I don't care anymore!

So he did it again.  Spent the hard earned money on drugs and he knew what kind of shape we are in financially.  On top of that, his family has been leaning on us for money because they are having a hard way to go and unfortunately, I can't help them any more.  I've gotta keep an eye on my own life.  

 We have a really cool beach house but I'll be damned if I can get down there because he's tired from working all week so we gotta sit here in the AC.  LOL, that didn't sound very sad, did it? 

  I need help to fight his addiction.  If he's not going to try, I'm going to have to give him a big swift kick in his ass to get him going.  I want him clean and sober!!